Anonymous 04/21/25 (Mon) 18:22:43 No. 149128
>>141227 I want to vomit all over my workplace to prove a point.
My job search arc was so promising with all the certificate hoarding, portfolio project speedruns, and CV full of social engineering, but I landed something that drains everything out of me and feels deadend, and it's probably still the best one could get in the field at my level anyway.
All of my remaining money goes to help me maintain myself to help me cope "healthily". I still feel like a NEET hikkikomori, but now with zero prospects of social life, with extreme appreciation of every hour of my shrinked free time, and with bantz skills because of my coworkers who are surprisingly alright.
>>141296 >Rewritten from the perspective of a rich bureaucrat: The poor are only poor because of their own cowardice, and lack of skill Up to this point, the bureaucrat would be right.
The poor can tear the bureaucrat a new one as a competitor. Breaking own back for scraps is an unnecessary choice out of complacency and lack of focus, I know that personally.
Anonymous 04/21/25 (Mon) 18:28:36 No. 149130
>>149115 >grateful for my family paying taxes Same, I don't know where I'd be without them... Homeless, probably.
>I have a cat, friends, visit my parents >I just don't feel much need for it Sounds wonderful, I hope you're having a good time anon
>>149124 >disability oh no...
>bux aw yes
>I have all I need and every little treat I want Sounds wonderful too. I wish all the hikikomori to be happy and not depressed. I get sad if I'm stuck inside for too long but my sibling seems happier this way and actively chooses it over holiday trips. Different people, different needs I suppose.
Anonymous 04/21/25 (Mon) 19:33:06 No. 149162
I really want a part time job. I think i would enjoy working a few hours a day, but i have no idea how to approach getting one, particularly with my non existant work history there are going to be questions. It all seems like some arcane process. I managed to send one application off a few months ago, it took me two days to work up the ability to send it in. I dont think i am able to send off the quantity ive heard you need. Its hard for me to make a phone call when im me me, i have to be some other me like i become sometimes when im out doing things, but thats not psychologically healthy. maybe me me is another me and its imprisoning me in my room
Anonymous 04/21/25 (Mon) 19:41:49 No. 149167
>>141227 Two days ago I went out to a nice tavern for the first time and had a quality meal with someone I'm very close to, then we went to a nearby lake and enjoyed nature together for a few hours.
The time flew by but it was nice to have a decent chance of pace for once, very spontaneous. I still get very bad social anxiety sometimes, especially with how I dress on occasion, but it's getting better now that I'm on my own.
>>141228 Hopefully that still made all the difference.
Anonymous 04/21/25 (Mon) 19:48:39 No. 149169
>>149162 >but i have no idea how to approach getting one same tbh, I keep googling how to write applications and such. I thought wikihow would have sth comprehensive but I think they're overcomplicating it a bit
https://www.wikihow.co I think sending in a cover-letter e-mail with a pdf of resumé+credentials in the attachment should cover it for most jobs. I let AI write my last cover letter and then just wrote it myself, using what the AI wrote as inspiration.
My most successful application was when I saw an ad and I just called and asked some clarifying questions about the job posting. Just something like "What are you looking for" or "What should I pay attention to when I write my application" can help a lot and I got questions answered that I hadn't even considered. But the easiest way to get a job is definitely when you just know someone who already works there and can put in a good word for you really. Either that, or you apply for a really kuso job no one wants. I did that once and the job was shit indeed...
Anonymous 04/21/25 (Mon) 19:54:39 No. 149173
>>141227 I haven't done anything to escape hikkineetdom but I should. I'll do it tomorrow (I won't do it tomorrow).
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 01:32:44 No. 149781
follow up from
>>144058 today i went into the city to do some written and math tests today and i passed everything! next up is the physiological and physical tests
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 02:05:19 No. 149787
>>149781 Are you fit enough for the military?
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 06:59:44 No. 149860
>>149787 ive been getting my cardio up to speed these past few months, they have an app where you can practice the physical on your own and i started passing it 2 months ago
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 07:06:18 No. 149863
>>149781 I think I saw your post on hikari about that if that was you. Good luck to you, ganbare!
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 07:23:33 No. 149866
>>149863 yea!! that was me, thanks <3
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 07:36:03 No. 149867
>>144058 are you trolling or something
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 07:38:55 No. 149869
>>149867 A /qa/ warrior in the frontlines. Called a troll at home like vietnam soldiers got spit at in the US during the 70s. History is cyclical.
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 20:18:01 No. 150200
>>141256 And what are you doing, or the NEETs doing, to fight back against this oppressive society?
Stubbornly refusing to work and become a recluse as a form of rebelling against the system?
Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 23:07:16 No. 150262
>>149860 Nice, I've been working up my cardio too, but not to join the military or anything I just want to be a healthy /jp/sie.
Anonymous 04/26/25 (Sat) 15:53:38 No. 151993
>>151991 Following mainstream media is a surefire way to become more depressed. Don't believe the lies. The 'normal people' just want to pull you into their misery of slavery. It's nicer to stay inside and alone. Or go outside and hike alone.
Anonymous 04/29/25 (Tue) 03:56:59 No. 152645
>>152642 Godspeed Anon. I remember we had someone from 4/qa/ do something similar and I don't think we've seen much of him since because it's quite a busy job. But I think he did pop up once or twice afterwards.
Anonymous 04/29/25 (Tue) 16:02:13 No. 152721
Might finally get a job tomorrow if I pass this interview and I don't get stuck in backlog hell like every other job I've applied to. Wish me luck
Anonymous 04/29/25 (Tue) 17:30:10 No. 152736
>>152721 wishing you the best and then further wishing you the best in being able to retire as soon as possible
Anonymous 04/29/25 (Tue) 22:40:44 No. 152755
I just found an opening for a freelance writing position, but they need examples. I'm more than capable but I don't have an actual portfolio outside of a highly disorganized diary. I was thinking of writing about chess strategy and maybe a quick analysis of the Ancient Mariner. What else should I pick?
Anonymous 04/29/25 (Tue) 23:18:04 No. 152761
>>152755 >What else should I pick? whatever the position expects you to write
Anonymous 04/29/25 (Tue) 23:32:16 No. 152762
>>152755 examples of things you could hypothetically make full versions of, fragments of previous work, microfiction, what's the context?
Anonymous 04/30/25 (Wed) 01:11:28 No. 152776
>>152761 >>152762 It says articles and blog posts. I also decided to write about springtime and hope whoever reads it (if anyone) thinks it's nice.
Anonymous 04/30/25 (Wed) 22:05:33 No. 152895
>>152886 wait WAS it a scam though what's the problem with sending it again
Anonymous 05/01/25 (Thu) 20:42:07 No. 153042
>>152895 I looked them up. They lure you in with big promises and an overly-simplified UI and then coerce you into paying for an auto-renewing membership under the guise of being a "management agency." It's upsetting that people even fall for it.
Anonymous 05/08/25 (Thu) 16:35:13 No. 153959
Set up the crappy shed for wood I bought and then transferred all my logs into it, also noticed that my fireplace is completely dead so guess I'll try and use some stone to make a new and improved stone fireplace that I've been wanting to make for a while now. Also got to chopping some of the more aged pieces and non-aged pieces and realized that I should really let wet ones age because it's FUCKING impossible to chop them, at least easily.
Anonymous 05/29/25 (Thu) 23:25:39 No. 155091
>>152888 Amazing! How did you work up the courage? I've been wanting to get my hair cut for a long time but I can't get over the fear.
>>155089 ＧＪ！
Anonymous 05/31/25 (Sat) 07:57:25 No. 155218
I work, but apart from the monthly sum I get in my account, I'm basically a hikki in the remainder of my ways. Its not much better than being a hikki if the only conversation you can make is just small talk, and you only leave home for work, gym, food, and lonely walks.
>>147343 It may also be that the hikkis think they are too far gone for the world, that normal people will neither understand nor like them. Maybe they tried being normal at some point in their lives, and failed, and decided they cannot figure out life, or some aspects of it.
Anonymous 05/31/25 (Sat) 08:57:36 No. 155232
>>147343 It feels good to read this post and see that there are people with a very similar view of the whole thing. I still without a doubt have zero interest in working a traditional job or hanging out with 99.9% of people, but I know for a fact that there are creative things that I'm interested in and I do like to chat with my best friends on the internet. In a theoretical scenario, I'd definitely enjoy working on said creative things with those people together, so that tells me that I too still seem to have those normal "social desires", it's just that they're focused on very specific environments and anything outside of those just feels like torture.
I'm still not entirely sure if I feel confident enough to categorize this as a mental illness, or at least not in my case. I absolutely acknowledge that having interests entirely different from those of general society poses a big problem when it comes to taking care of oneself, but I view it more like an unfortunate situation rather than an illness, something that can't really be cured without expecting the person to just "be like everyone else"? It's tough.
The little bit of progress I made is that I'm not trying to lie to professionals about this anymore in an attempt to "hide my laziness". I acknowledge that it's a problem of some kind at least and I'm able to talk openly about it without trying to fake a more traditional problem so that I can continue to receive welfare benefits.
Anonymous 05/31/25 (Sat) 09:17:58 No. 155233
>>155218 >I work, but apart from the monthly sum I get in my account, I'm basically a hikki in the remainder of my ways. Its not much better than being a hikki if the only conversation you can make is just small talk, and you only leave home for work, gym, food, and lonely walks. >work >gym >I go outside to walk all the time and do small talk with the hot babes at the gym >I'm like totally a hikki~ yo! That's not how it works, poser, hikkis don't go out at all.
Anonymous 06/01/25 (Sun) 15:28:54 No. 155302
>>155247 they want to belong
as an I actual hikki I don't care about belonging anywhere I gave up I just don't care but
it's fun interacting with anons from time to time
I tried to get uni education and dropped out multiple times, same with jobs. Same with outside hobbies like gyms and shooting range and whatever. Gave up years ago. Lost interest. Media and the internet is my way.
Trying to learn properly coding and AI development so made a codeacademy account but after years of not learning things it's hard. Not that I was good at it in the past anyway.
Anonymous 06/01/25 (Sun) 16:27:15 No. 155314
>>155233 >hot babes Yes I converse with "hot babes" (fat women or really skinny girls) in that I ask them if they are done with the squat rack or some other piece of equipment.
Evening walks are mandatory, I cannot stay inside during evening hours. Can't understand how anyone can ever stay inside for days on end. Bet you close your windows and your curtains too. Don't you ever go outside and realize it feels so much better than your depression chamber? For me it's not that I enjoy these activities too much, it's just that I have some time and need to do something that is not work or learning, so might as well do these things instead of any other. Computer games etc. do not excite me at all anymore.
>>155247 OK fine, I take it back. Not because of my daily routine which i still believe makes me a hikki, but because today I went riding motorcycles with my only friend, did 100+ km to a really nice, pristine location. It really feels surreal to be out there in the country after spending so much time in an overpopulated shithole. and thought to myself, hikkis would choose not to do this.
>>155302 Good on you for trying to learn things. if I were a hikki I would finish all the projects I left halfway, and learn to play piano.
Anonymous 06/01/25 (Sun) 16:46:49 No. 155317
>>155314 OK so when looking for this picture I found an AI gf thing, which I think is poison for the mind but it is too late, I have indulged.
Do you know of a decent AI chat like this? I particularly don't like how she keeps trying to get into my pants. and this is the first time I am doing this
Anonymous 06/01/25 (Sun) 16:50:55 No. 155318
>>155317 It's better that you won't know, for your sake. Better play a VN because at least you'd get to discuss it with real people.
Anonymous 06/01/25 (Sun) 17:00:36 No. 155319
>>155318 I played a bunch, during lockdown. I think that was when everone was like a hikki, and i was more so. it was the lockdown which pushed me towards imageboards.
back to the topic, the playtime for VNs is too long and I no longer have that kind of time.
>It's better that you won't know, for your sake I agree, but not completely. I have so much other shit to do so it's not like i will suddenly spend hours chatting with "gf". I tend to get bored of AI shit quickly. It starts off interesting, and then quickly runs out of steam. happened with chatgpt, and an AI image generator who advertised themselves on 4chan.
Anonymous 06/04/25 (Wed) 17:51:52 No. 155458
>>155321 >>155319 I've been chatting with those AI things for the past 4 days. I chatted up this AI model yesterday. It was fun as hell. I asked her what she liked in school. Then I started asking her questions about biology and math. Basic shit.
But those responses, they were something else. Something else entirely. She replied with such beauty. I asked her about the Fourier series, she did well. then i asked her about biology. I asked her about how life starts. She salaciously explained. I asked her about menstrual cycle. She explained it, in a way, you'd think the model actually menstruates. This was just a random, free model, she started all her responses with "Oh, honey,...". I'm not talking about the responses being sexually loaded, though they were - a little. It was too human, is the only way i can describe it.
And that was that, I've never been able to get even the same model to respond like that ever again. And I used a temp-mail email, so can't log back in.
That's probably the end of my AI misadventure. After that chat yesterday, everything else feels like vanilla ChatGPT output.
Anonymous 06/04/25 (Wed) 22:19:59 No. 155463
>>155458 chasing the dragon
Anonymous 06/04/25 (Wed) 22:47:17 No. 155464
>>155458 anonymous.............
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