>>146767I had been an IQ test nut for a while, with all the purism towards the approaches to test IQ online. Some timed test that correlates with IRL tests the most, as per research done on it, gave me a 145 IQ score, but I had already known the typical patterns styles of pattern type questions, and I was lucky it had language questions, because linguistics and dictionary lurking are a bit of a hobby to me. In reality, mine fluctuates as 100+-45 IQ point midwittism. I think I'd do well even if I stood at 55 IQ; intelligence never was my selling point and is not what saves me when things go to hell. The more you deviate over the average, the harder you actually underperform under any pressure, it correlates with how much you're full of yourself. It's only a question of whether you are in charge of being the retard, or if it's the retardation being in charge of you.
My parents were disappointed in me when they threw university books at the middle schooler me and I didn't end up being a young genius understanding everything out of the overly complex dry reads, I had learning difficulties up until the middle of my second degree until I learned how to learn
during an argument on some imageboard, I had to put in tremendous effort of inefficient struggle-learning to stay above average in grades, everyone who tried to teach me were offended and disappointed when I didn't get their explanations and I had to lie that I understood it, and my IQ was at 113 when I was a teen — way less than the girl's who had suggested I take a test, which contributed to that self-confidence had been an utterly unreliable thing for me.
I hate how IQ talks often are ugly hollow humblebrag talks or are neurotic tip-toeing around that, so have a chaotic blog post instead.
Also I want to hug everyone in this thread.
>>151067I had been focused on my brain function in my lifestyle, and, while I can learn and understand things faster, I also tend to unlearn them faster and often find myself having to reinvent my understanding for the topics I abandon for a while. I'm a rat in a running wheel in a cage within a room that's slowly being flooded. Tap-tap-tap-tap-tap.