>>166033
Have you considered having your groceries delivered?

>>166034
Strangers at my doorstep is my nightmare fuel

I think I'm done with pirating for a while.
I just spent the entire day cleaning my computer because one of the exe's launched a command prompt and then I found something called Banshee running in Task Manager which installed a bunch of other exes and then literally broke my Windows to the point that I had to reinstall the whole thing. It tried to be clever like adding my entire C: drive to the Windows Defender exclusion list and literally removing the Windows Malware Removal Tool. I finally got rid of it it seems using a combination of Malwarebytes and the Windows Defender offline scanner. And now I have reset every single password I've ever used since I have to assume it got them.

Whoever did this is an idiot though because if they just properly cracked the game and it ran I probably never would have noticed.

>>166041
Bit late to say this after the incident, but you are supposed to run pirated games on a separate machine or in a VM that never has access to anything important.
Keep this in mind in the future.

>>166042
Even VMs are not safe. Separate machine is the go-to

>>166042
The game would run like crap if it had to go through the overhead of being run in a VM.

>>166041
No fucking way, viruses in this day and age? Are anti-virus companies trying to get relevant again? What did you download, when is it from and where? It's genuinely weird to hear someone getting their PC infected, it honestly feels like nobody bothers putting up malware online anymore. Maybe it's just me because I don't download the stuff that attracts the most pirate traffic?

>>166041
How did you get a virus, you downloaded from a random page or person? Was it a sussy uploader like IGG games

I feel like freemasons are watching me I keep seeing the number three everywhere

>>166052
I think you should tell someone close to you about these concerns. To protect them as well.

>>166053
Youre right I should tell my mother and father so all 3 of us can stay safe

>>166052
hope you get over your schizophrenia, heres a funny picture by that guy who does the dogs playing poker to make you feel better

It's no wonder dogs chase cats when they make such cute whines

Frustrated with myself because I "want" to work on creative stuff, but I feel so deprived of energy that I've just been procrastinating for over a week and get nothing done. It's not like I haven't been working on things at all, but it feels bad doing it even though I'd like to continue. I wish I still had the energy from when I was a child.

The bitterness of life dissolves all ambition

>>166059
Just channel Shia Labeouf and do it
Not like you’ll feel better procrastinating

>>166059
This probably sounds like a broken record but you really need to do three things to "work correctly" again.
You can't feel energized without eating decently. You gotta eat until you feel proper full at least every once in a while. Healthy food is preferable but the primary requirement is having a proper meal. sedentary lifestyle makes it easy to get by with less food than you actually need.
Exercise sucks, I found that running in place until Im at my limit to be the best compromise of doing any exercise at all in any sort of consistency.
Something that gets mentioned way less is meditation. It's basically a silver bullet to kuso attention span, but its the mental version of exercising which takes a toll. Necessary to get "fixed" but none of this is fun to do.
My preferred style of meditation is counting breaths and visualizing the number of the breath in my minds' eye. Breath in, visualize the number 1, breath out, visualize the number 2, etc etc. Restart from 1 when you notice that you lost count. Note that the purpose is to notice those moments where you slip and lose count. You are rewiring yourself to notice when your attention wanes and slowly rebuilt the span time. You're not supposed to keep the count going from start to finish consistently, that has to come naturally over time.
Set either a timer or some ambient music (something that doesn't distract or draw attention, anything closer to white noise, even music primarily played with a piano can be too much), start with 5 to 10 minutes until you do 20 minutes consistently. Longer could be better, but from tests that people conducted, 20 minutes a day seems to be enough to make substantial changes if you do it consistently every day.

>>166072
>>166080
Thank you very much, I appreciate the tips a lot and the meditation exercise actually is new info to me personally. Even if it wasn't, I think a broken record is beneficial more than anything if it reminds you of something positive.

I shall give this a try, but if you don't mind me asking, how do you deal with the fact that it seems necessary to "waste" your time on exercises like these as an adult? It's a demotivating thought to me that, when I was younger, none of this was necessary and now I basically have to prepare myself to engage in fun activities. Though, now that I think about it a little, perhaps that isn't even true and as a kid you just automatically exercised when you had to go to school and learn? And that now you have to simulate that in the comfort of your own home, which definitely makes it sound better.

too tryhard of advice. Life sucks and that's why you don't feel motivated. When you realize that you're unhappy, you can do the things that matter and focus your anger and hate towards the things that you want to change.

Make yourself stubbornly convinced anything accepts you - you'd act less like a mixed signal nuisance wreck as seen by others, so you wouldn't be wrong.

>>166082
>how do you deal with the fact that it seems necessary to "waste" your time on exercises like these as an adult?
The human body is, at the end of the day, a flesh machine. When it's "fresh out of the factory", it operates well as you'd expect something out of the box. I'm no physiologist or anything but I also presume that when a kid is still growing, this sort of "maintenance" is less necessary simply because you're growing and changing.
That's for the physical state at least. Mentally, as a child everything is naturally interesting because everything is new. Over time you start seeing the patterns though, you more or less know what to expect, and if it's not really critical, the mind would rather put it off until its necessary. As you grow into an adult, you start forming habits based around those patterns. For those of us who lead a sedentary life in particular, the bulk of your natural habits are "waste only the bare minimum of energy". Even if you have some hobby you wanna dabble in, you have to swim against the current of your habits that naturally draw you in the direction that you've built up over your life. You likely haven't noticed it, but if you pay attention, you'll probably notice that to certain varying degrees, your habits drive your life rather than your desires and will, as if you're in some form of autopilot of varying degrees of control.
Meditation acts as a sort of "hard stop" to the habitual flow of your life. Know how people sometimes suggest doing something unusual in your life for a change of pace? To break the monotone? Same principle. You stop going with the flow of your habits, this shakes off your autopilot mode, you start paying more attention to what you are doing and you take over your actions more directly. Meditation is as about clearing the mind as it is about toggling off your habit-driven autopilot. The brain isn't really capable of adapting to this "anti-habit" ritual, it naturally draws to the autopilot state. When you meditate, what you're doing is essentially spotting the moments where your mind slips into the autopilot mode, and you reign the control back in to yourself. As you keep training this brain-yanking, your attention span and willful control naturally improves, similar to how lifting something heavy becomes easier the more you actively do it.

Keep in mind that you're "curing" a "condition" you've built up for years if not the majority of your life. It's not gonna be enjoyable, but it makes you somewhat thankful that you "only" need to waste 20 minutes on meditation a day to fix it.

>>166092
>When it's "fresh out of the factory", it operates well as you'd expect something out of the box.
Depends on the signals it was fed during gestation, actually. Some can be very fake or inaccurate.

The fancy cologne I mistakenly used for my lone hike made me stink like some fuckboy, I fail to relax at home now.

I found an offer for a 5090 that allows for 36 monthly payments of around 80 Euro and immediately got rejected because my income is NEET bucks.

Sorry I meant to quote you, but I realize now you never explicitly said the actual price so it's no longer a quote.
￥€2880 GPU
￥neetbux
They did you a favor, what were you thinking getting into debt for? Slightly better anime porn generation abilities?

>>166163
It would be mostly for multimedia stuff like quicker upscaling, genning less important resources like BGs, overlays, accent objects and simple models for editing, though of course also the porn and a tiny bit of gaming. You're certainly right the money would be super tight for the next 3 years, but it would be really cool..

I'm starting to think I have some kind of neurological disorder related to humor. If something is funny I don't just go "haha" and move on, I laugh at first, then try not to laugh, then let out some kind of wheezing noise, whoever I'm with notices it and laughs at me, and then I become hyperconscious about it and double over in total hysterics for at least five minutes on and off. It goes all the way back to my childhood, and one of my earliest memories is of dying lauging like this at George Bush.
For all of yesterday and today, I was stuck in a merch booth at a completely dead event with nothing to do except peoplewatch and make smartass comments. And even now I still randomly start rolling in bed and laughing so much I think I might die.

OK Arthur Fleck

>>166285
it's inbad taste to write it thrice

not sure if youtube broke my player or my browser broke..

>>166285
By your powers combined, i'm canadian

day #250 of my j word application being denied

>>166291
Do you have a stable source of funds?
If so, keep it up.

>>166167
Unless it's an actual business expense, you'd just end up salty you don't have the 6090 before your last payment.

just wanna kill myself really badly
in a few weeks it'll pass
go to work tomorrow or not...

>>166298
Just work away the suicidal thoughts

Flight got delayed so long I had to switch to a new one and that one’s earlier than the old one and now my baggage has to be checked again fucking aaaaaaaaa

>>166298
Quit your job and it'll pass

>>166288
i tried disabling adblock and it's still doing it...

>>166298
If you don't think you're the problem, get a different job. If you think you're the problem, then fix what makes you feel that way(idk how)

>>166301
After the flight switch I made it in around the same time that I would’ve originally. So I guess things worked iut sorta not really because the flight had already been delayed so long beforehand that I ended up with a midnight arrival instead of an afternoon one.

Decided I'm just gonna neet and not go to school cuz then I don't have to worry about budgeting and live it up

had a dream i had a cute japanese girlfriend half my height again

As red paint, blood really sucks.

>>166367
speaking from experience?

Exhaustion and leftover pumpkin pie do not mix. Sour cream is not whipped cream.