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>>95295
Things are supposedly good for me, but it doesn't seem to be so at all, especially after the short-lived good it'll all be downhill from there.
I bet my suicidal thoughts are the most violent in the world.

>>95295
Britain can still be saved.

>>95296
Nice song.

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>>95295
try to view things as staying around out of spite. and eat something good, and if you're pressuring yourself, be lazy and treat yourself to doing nothing and whatever kind of reward makes you happy. if nothing makes you happy, consider your purpose discovering what does. if the alternative is ending everything, then sinking lower and lower is still better

I'm not feeling much better even though I tried doing a bunch of my favorite things.

>>95343
Try this and see if it makes you feel better: If you slowly spin in place with a full mug in your hand, you can see the beverage inside move in this really cool way. I notice this every time I make coffee and turn away from my kitchen counter, it always blows my mind. Don't just take my word for it, try it out for yourself.

reading >>>/spg/3524 made me feel less depressed

>>95295
Yeah it is like that sometimes, like logically you know it to be true and have plenty of evidence.
I can say that if you wish it to be better, and can accept that in the process of doing so you may hurt a lot more than if you just ran away, you can overcome that annoying voice and quiet that anxiety!
Do your best sis, I'm rooting for you!
We're all able to make it if we wish it!

I've tried getting decorations for my room and things that would make me happy like posters, figures, and plushies but they just make me feel even more sad and depressed. Usually I imagine dying (accident or suicide) and someone having to go through my room and throw everything out. Imagine my father putting a teddy bear in a plastic bag after his son offed himself. I also feel deep shame over having a single anime figurine.
I also get too emotional trying to dispose of these things myself (autistic empathy for inanimate objects) so I can't get rid of things easily. I wish I owned nothing but chairs desks piles of textbooks and a laptop. It's so unfair that I can't even express my personality in my own room without feeling terrible.

nonny please don't be yourself it isn't worth it.

oh frig off with the filter you know what I meant.
Anyways, it isn't worth it. I get really bad intrusive thoughts telling me that I should kill myself every day, and it sucks, but you just gotta let the moment pass, and the feeling will go too.
It isn't worth offing yourself.

I've found that having a schedule to your life, and doing something productive helps with not feeling terrible about yourself. Learning to code, and nihongo helped me alleviate the feeling of being a good-for-nothing NEET, giving me an excuse to feel like I'm preparing for something good to come in the future. Albeit, nothing good has come of it so far but I'm still hopeful... Probably the last year of hopefulness for me though. I don't know what I'll do after that. But sometimes that's all you need, just to alleviate your current feelings just a bit longer till that good thing comes to you. Hope you find your good thing, Anon.
What also helped me is moving out (and starting a part-time job.) I can indulge in all the anime I want without feeling bad about it. Back home, there was always this lingering feeling of "I don't deserve having fun" whenever I tried doing something fun. Eventually got into the habit of "buying" myself happiness by doing (what I considered) productive stuff all day, then enjoying a few hours the next day.
Sometimes you need to change your life, if your life right now makes you not want to continue it. It's not easy, but if you're going to off yourself, might as well try everything you can to make it better.
Good luck Anon.

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>>95306
I've found that this
>try to view things as staying around out of spite
helps in the short term, while
>consider your purpose discovering what does [make you happy]
is a good long term goal.
In the medium term, it helps to eat healthy, get 8 hours of sleep a day, stay physically active (even if it's just a 15-20 minute walk a day) and experience something new and slightly outside your comfort zone once or twice a week. (If you don't normally go the movies or live music, that's a good place to start. If there are picturesque places you have no "good" reason to visit, that's another good angle. If being around people is too much, buy an instrument and play around with it, without expecting yourself to get good enough to perform it live. It's not about that. It's about making it sound how you feel for an audience of none.)
None of this will magically solve your problems, but it could help establish a habit of focusing on non-traumatizing stuff outside your head that makes it easier to work towards longer term goals.