[peroperomeramera] A Series of Pissful Events Vol. 17 [Digital]
[tardsexyer] In this World, Boys Can't Hold Their Bladder??? Part 3
[shinitai] That Time I Pissed on My Obaa-sama and She Liked It [Digital]

New Pope!
And he's an Augustinian!

wow getting raped by AI women is sure is hot, don't know why people say this shit is bad.

wow getting raped by AI women really jogs that noggin' gets me goin' makes me think, makes wanna write terrible smut where MC-kun gets bullied by girls n shit.

I am now officially getting bennies :DD

>>37517
(That's benefits, not the drug (apparently that's an amphetamine who knew))

now that's a video with a twist

What a great watch that was.

Holy shit what a fucking asshole. (Not Louis obviously)

>>37043
hmmmm, i wouldn't delete my foot reviews

>>37043
good riddance. their kind are like a plague.

>>37069
bleh'ing@u

saw the deleted thread

SOMETHING got deleted but it was in like the third row and i didn't pay enough attention when refreshing the catalog

U.N. Owen gets fucked in the asshole

I feel similarly and need to say it somewhere but I don't want to clog anywhere up, I hope it isn't selfish.

I take medicine for a health reason that only had one real occurance for me. I don't like that I have to take it, but whenever I've pushed back on it and tried to inquire about cutting the dosage or getting off it, I'm shut down. I've always thought it was a fluke and I don't need it. I was looking at the side effects again recently and they scare me- they all match traits I have. I don't usually buy into these, similar to self-diagnosing, but there's pages and pages of discussion on it and every single one lines up.

Sometimes I'll have periods like this >>37459 and think about hitting every car in a parking deck, or I've shouted horrible things for a few seconds or minutes at home. Until revisiting the side-effects I always took it as anger issues and I need to not be a manchild. It's scarier if it's not entirely my fault and something might alter my brain enough to influence that behavior. So I tried cutting the dose on my own even though it could be bad. The last few days my hands are clenched and aching when I wake up and I've had really vivid dreams and restlessness. Today it was a really gay one where I got plapped and I feel violated. I dream often but I believe the medicine is partially supposed to help with your brain when sleeping. When I look around online it sounds like they'll either give you alternative medications with similar or different complications, or load you up on multiple to balance it out and stabilize/surpress your mood.

I feel scared that I don't remember what I was like before taking it and that it zombifies me a bit. I don't like how you can't express thoughts like this or you're fishing for attention, or its taken as performative and you just like the idea of being "off". You can't relate to characters like Rena because you're creating this inside your head, even if there's clear justification for why you might feel like things aren't good.

>>37479
>Today it was a really gay one where I got plapped and I feel violated.
there's something inappropriate here about referring to it as plapping in this context and it made me laugh a lot i'm sorry anonymous.......

>>37488
Is plap a filter for rape on kissu? Test.

>>37499
No, then.
Anyway OP here feeling a bit better now.
I guess it was just getting really drunk the other day that made a lot of my feelings well up.
I'm not really sure if there are any real options going forward. I'd like to think that my depression results from my personal circumstances which means that I can rid myself of it by changing my life in some significant way, but then I think back through my life and it's obvious to me that I've pretty much always been depressed. I didn't "fall into" depression after something. I was considering suicide at least once a month since elementary school.
Although back then it was more closely tied with fantasies about how my family would react to it than today. Of course I still wonder how they'd react but now I mostly think of killing myself just to get out of all the effort involved in life. I'm extremely lazy and while I think that I might be able to, through some manifestation of great effort, make myself happy, I know that manifesting that effort would be so utterly mentally and physically exhausting that I don't even want to think about it.
So maybe it is just some issue with my brain. Chemicals and all that. But those chemicals are me. They've been me since I was born. I am nothing but chemicals. Can I really justify changing or manipulating them? I mean I do already, with alcohol, coffee, etc but taking medication is a step beyond all that.
I don't hate myself. I don't want to destroy or hurt myself because I can't stand who I am. I like who I am. I just know that who I am is someone who'll likely never be happy.
You know?

>>37479
Even if there's a chance that you might not need that medication and that the current side-effects might just be temporary, I think that sounds really dangerous! If I were in your shoes, I think I would continue taking the stuff and look for a different doctor who doesn't just shut you down for being worried and curious, but is able to patiently answer to every question you have and provide you with options. Lazy doctors are really horrible when you require more complex help and they cause unneccessary stress. Hope you get better quick!

>>37500
Glad to hear that it's at the very least temporarily better right now!
I believe you might be too hooked up on thinking about what truly makes you yourself, and potentially overestimating the permanence of medical treatment. I somehow naturally developed an auto-immune disorder that already caused permanent damage to some of my movement abilities (though it's not as bad as it might sound) and I need to undergo treatment to keep this issue in check and not eventually lose the ability to use a controller, keyboard or do grocery shopping on my own. This is a physical problem, not a mental one, but seeing as it supposedly developed by pure chance, one could make the argument that it makes the whole of me and that treating it would be to manipulate not only myself, but also my fate. Not treating it would mean I would eventually lose all the abilities I need to engage in the things that I like. Similarly, I believe if you don't change anything, you will also eventually lose the things that currently might provide you with at least the tiniest bit of relief, and that currently, you might just be making things unnecessarily more difficult for yourself.
As for the permanence of medical treatment, I view it more like a temporary supplement that is used to kickstart you into a better direction, one that provides you with a better feeling just from working towards it. Then, once you've gotten to a much better place with the help of treatment, work towards cutting it out again. From what I heard (and this is actually just from random internet posts now, no personal experience or belief), feeling like a zombie is an issue with too high dosages or wrong medication that should get swapped out for a different one whicPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Too many threads like this in the jay

Moved by followup

>>37475
Yeah it's starting to get a bit much.

Moved by followup

I guess I can move more shitpost meta here

Are you deliberately shitting the place up because there are now a large number of touhou posters from 4/jp/ here?

nigger

classic /secret/

imouto or onee

>>37448
>>37455
redundant question because either way >>37454 is a must

It must be done

she got impatient waiting

>>37464
god
i
wish
that
were
me

If my share trading plan works and I become rich, then maybe that will be me one day.

>>37466
god
speed

Maybe it's for the best that when I was in my formative years the only anime available to us was Pokemon and Sailor Moon

>>37469
In my case anime actually stopped me acting on it. Because of how special it shows imoutos to be. You can't risk ruining things over behaviour like that.

>>37428
Were they surprised you were still alive

>>37452
No. I text my mum all the time. I was trying to explain Okuu to her the other day.

Tomorrow... The war begins.
This time it will be important...

I made $110 today.
B-but I was just toying with the ASX.
My real attack will be tomorrow.

Today I lost $1260.
Sigh... My sensitive Otome no Kokoro can't handle this.
But I have to continue or my sisters and the Finance Minister will never love me.

The issue was mostly not with my new plan but actually with my old plan that is supposed to be safer. Basically a bunch of safe positions went down and triggered their stop losses. I was losing interest in that strategy anyway. Average returns would only be about 0.3% a day. Not sure what today would be as I'm notgoing to bother calculating it.

I had some issues with the stoplosses in my new plan too but in this case they went off too early.

Ah well.

>>37412
woah hey I watched that video too
I like that channel
spec evo and linguistics? it's like two of my biggest interests together